October 5, 2008
Give me credit
I thought that my novel had stagnated off to a line a month, a cohesive paragraph every season, but every time I find myself drifting off in class, I start working on that instead. It’s just enough to get me through calculating marginal revenues and molecular geometries. And my weekends, which used to be my most productive days, are simply days where I have to find things to fill the hours of empty time. Today, for instance, I opened up Photoshop this afternoon, and just half an hour ago, I came out of it with a mostly finished family tree for my story. What’s the benefit of that? Well, I can’t be devious about creating story lines — and I have been extremely devious recently — if I keep going into a fantasy cliche about creating ageless characters and that jazz. Nope, everyone dies. Don’t take that literally, but expect it. I don’t write your granny’s fiction.
Part of the reason that I’ve overloaded myself with five generations of fictional characters is that I’m surprisingly finding out that there’s not much for me to do in the gaps between meals and trips to various locations around campus, to break the boredom. All in the company of friends, of course. So I’ve watched at least ten movies in the past two weeks (Across The Universe, which the Beatles geek in me highly approves of, Everything Is Illuminated, which left out the juicy historical parts of the book much to my disappointment, and The Hours, which was a beautiful adaption from the novel are the new ones — as well as The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian, Spirited Away, and Howl’s Moving Castle), and I don’t see myself breaking that cycle until I can find a better hobby. I think it’s time for me to get over my fear of playing piano in the lobby. Stupid acoustics!
And then of course, there is my excessive music listening. Ever since I started using Last.FM, I’ve been hypersensitive to the fact that I name my songs a bit differently than what Last.FM deems proper. I run into some problems when I listen to songs from musicals and movies soundtracks, particularly Evita and Gladiator, because surprise, surprise, these happen to also be the names of bands. But if I’m looking for a song on my playlist, it makes a lot more sense for me to look for “Evita” and “Gladiator” than “Andrew Lloyd Webber” and “Hans Zimmer/Lisa Gerrard.” It is both hilarious and frustrating to see fans of the bands comment that the “Artist - Song Title” format is absolute, because as much as I want to try to resolve the situation, only one side really ends up benefiting. I am aware of the fact that Evita (the musical) was not in fact the artist who created the soundtrack, or that Gladiator (the movie) did not provide that haunting instrumentation, but it’s not a crime. At the very least, it’s a pardonable offense. I’m just trying to listen to my music!

