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Posted February 13, 2010 in Writing

I don’t really talk about poetry very much, nor do I write a lot of it. I usually leave that sort of stuff to Lindsay, because she’s got me beat when rhyme and rhythm are concerned. But nonetheless, I love it to pieces.

I rather like Petrarch and Dante, but in the late Renaissance, sonnets and odes about love and lost love and being sad about lost love start becoming excruciatingly common place, and the tedium of it bores me. I’m going to go ahead and blame England for this one, but come the late 18th and early 19th-centuries, poets like Shelley, Keats, Tennyson, and Byron start redeeming the sins of the lovelorn — or at least making it more palatable. But I love modern poetry (I’m going to define this as just poems of the 20th century, for simplicity’s sake) just a bit more. I can’t explain it. I know that, for every Ezra Pound or Anne Sexton, there are a thousand, terrible, modern poets.

So I went and scoured the internet for my favorite examples of modern poetry. Sometimes, I picked poems I have read many, many times before. Other times, I stumbled upon a work I liked by an author I had only read in passing before, and found something new to love and appreciate. My compendium includes Eliot, Neruda, Sexton, Millay, Sandburg, and Plath. As you’ve probably noticed, I keep fiddling with the poems I selected, because I keep forgetting which ones I liked, and I keep finding new ones I like even more. Many of these poems are merely excerpts (marked with an …), but I hope you like them!

T.S. Eliot

These are actually two of my favorite Eliot poems. Both Marina and Ash Wednesday are lyrical, solemn, and beautiful, and are some of Eliot’s more accessible poems. I love The Wasteland personally, but it is very abstract. So there we are:

Marina (…)

What is this face, less clear and clearer
The pulse in the arm, less strong and stronger‚ Given or lent? more distant than stars and nearer than the eye
Whispers and small laughter between leaves and hurrying feet
Under sleep, where all the waters meet.

Bowsprit cracked with ice and paint cracked with heat.
I made this, I have forgotten
And remember.
The rigging weak and the canvas rotten
Between one June and another September.
Made this unknowing, half conscious, unknown, my own.
The garboard strake leaks, the seams need caulking.
This form, this face, this life
Living to live in a world of time beyond me; let me
Resign my life for this life, my speech for that unspoken,
The awakened, lips parted, the hope, the new ships.

What seas what shores what granite islands towards my timbers
And woodthrush calling through the fog
My daughter.

Ash Wednesday (…)

VI. Although I do not hope to turn again
Although I do not hope
Although I do not hope to turn

Wavering between the profit and the loss
In this brief transit where the dreams cross
The dreamcrossed twilight between birth and dying
(Bless me father) though I do not wish to wish these things
From the wide window towards the granite shore
The white sails still fly seaward, seaward flying
Unbroken wings

And the lost heart stiffens and rejoices
In the lost lilac and the lost sea voices
And the weak spirit quickens to rebel
For the bent golden-rod and the lost sea smell
Quickens to recover
The cry of quail and the whirling plover
And the blind eye creates
The empty forms between the ivory gates
And smell renews the salt savour of the sandy earth

This is the time of tension between dying and birth
The place of solitude where three dreams cross
Between blue rocks
But when the voices shaken from the yew-tree drift away
Let the other yew be shaken and reply.

Blessèd sister, holy mother, spirit of the fountain, spirit of the garden,
Suffer us not to mock ourselves with falsehood
Teach us to care and not to care
Teach us to sit still
Even among these rocks,
Our peace in His will
And even among these rocks
Sister, mother
And spirit of the river, spirit of the sea,
Suffer me not to be separated

And let my cry come unto Thee.

Sylvia Plath

I actually hadn’t read much Sylvia Plath prior to this post, but I wasn’t surprised to find a lucid, eloquent voice, even in times of bitterness, anger, and anguish.

Sonnet: To Eva (…)

This was a woman : her loves and stratagems
Betrayed in mute geometry of broken
Cogs and disks, inane mechanic whims,
And idle coils of jargon yet unspoken.

Not man nor demigod could put together
The scraps of rusted reverie, the wheels
Of notched tin platitudes concerning weather,
Perfume, politics, and fixed ideals.

The idiot bird leaps up and drunken leans
To chirp the hour in lunatic thirteens.

Candles (…)

They are the last romantics, these candles:
Upside-down hearts of light tipping wax fingers,
And the fingers, taken in by their own haloes,
Grown milky, almost clear, like the bodies of saints.
It is touching, the way they’ll ignore

A whole family of prominent objects
Simply to plumb the deeps of an eye
In its hollow of shadows, its fringe of reeds,
And the owner past thirty, no beauty at all.
Daylight would be more judicious,

Giving everybody a fair hearing.
They should have gone out with the balloon flights and the stereopticon.
This is no time for the private point of view.
When I light them, my nostrils prickle.
Their pale, tentative yellows

They mollify the bald moon.
Nun-souled, they burn heavenward and never marry.
The eyes of the child I nurse are scarcely open.
In twenty years I shall be retrograde
As these drafty ephemerids.

I watch their spilt tears cloud and dull to pearls.
How shall I tell anything at all
To this infant still in a birth-drowse?
Tonight, like a shawl, the mild light enfolds her,
The shadows stoop over the guests at a christening.

Pablo Neruda

I read Neruda for the first time in English, senior year of high school. I took a poem in the original Spanish and set about translating it into English via Latin. For the life of me, I can’t remember what that poem was, but I found one about a penguin, so that will have to suffice:

Magellanic Penguin (…)

I was without doubt the child bird
there in the cold archipelagoes
when it looked at me with its eyes,
with its ancient ocean eyes:
it had neither arms nor wings
but hard little oars
on its sides:
it was as old as the salt;
the age of moving water,
and it looked at me from its age:
since then I know I do not exist;
I am a worm in the sand.

The reasons for my respect
remained in the sand:
the religious bird
did not need to fly,
did not need to sing,
and through its form was visible
its wild soul bled salt:
as if a vein from the bitter sea
had been broken.

Stuck true to your obsessions

Posted January 23, 2010 in Writing

It’s almost the end of January, and I’m already setting myself deadlines. My calendar is already pockmarked with various page numbers, chapters, quizzes to be completed — and this is just for the next few weeks. On top of that, I’m going to make myself sit down and have a finished, draft copy of my novel ready by June 30th. Right now, I’m sitting at about 83,000 words (thanks to my 50,633 from this year’s NaNoWriMo.)

This seems outrageous, mostly to me, because usually this is where I stop a draft and start over completely. I’ve done it twice before, and I’m terrified that I’m going to pause halfway through, reach back to the beginning, and make my protagonists leprechauns or something, and then the rest of the story wouldn’t work because they weren’t small, mystical, or Irish. This honestly haunts my every waking thought.

Where I stand right now, I’m about 1/3rd through the novel. All of the exposition is done, most of the characters have been introduced, everything is screwed up, and a lot of other things are in motion, namely death and destruction and probably some evil babies or something. I’m not quite caught up there. Now, 50,000 words in a month is remarkably doable if you sacrifice a bit of sleep and tranquilize your control-freak inner editor, who says that “squirm” is a much better word than “wiggle,” and that you really don’t know anything about botany, except for what you looked up on Wikipedia to make sure you weren’t putting tropical plants in a tundra setting. (Did you know there’s such a thing as an “Air Potato?”).

But goodness, I need to write at least 100,000 words in five months without slacking off. The word count doesn’t scare me as much as the idea that I will have to constantly motivate myself over half a year to get this done. Considering that formatting alone will take me a month and a crate of Kleenexes and maybe some Lasik, And editing — oh boy, editing. Editing will probably take me the rest of my life. I really don’t have any time to waste. Other than the time I’m taking to write about this. If only novel writing was this easy.

I have learned one thing. If you let the story just race out of you, the plot usually comes together on its own — roughly, but it’s still viable. I’ve gotten away with preparing one-line outlines, or none at all, and my chapters seem to have seamed themselves together. Additionally, because I’ve been working with these characters for so long, I’ve stopped trying to reinvent the characters themselves. They’re set in stone. They won’t change, even if I tried to. But I can change their roles. I leave blanks in my plot for certain roles to be filled, and when I’m close enough to the scene, the right name fits into place. That way, everything that needs to happen is taken care of, and hopefully by the right character.

Editing this beast is going to be hilarious. I’ll post snippets along the way. Here’s one for the road:

“Mercy!” shouted Murron, shaking in her white robe. Elodan did not look for her, but continued to wait for the cold, sharp blade to fall across his neck and sever him from his body. He would live but a few moments after that, his eyes blinking closed and his mouth falling open, forming words that no amount of air could voice. He would say, humbly, honestly, “Show me no mercy.” When the last word rang out in the air, he thought, Here comes the darkness. Here come the nameless gods out to receive me, with their vessels and banners and knowing eyes. They will say that Elodan must live a thousand more lives, must be born lame, blind, and withered, cursed beyond belief for his sins. So too must Ekar Kamo, Elodan would whisper, and the spirits would agree with their heads bowed.

But perhaps, one would add, he has already undertaken his penance.

You are not infallible, Elodan of Trea.

Then what hope have I of mercy? he would plead.

“Mercy!” she cried again, clutching at Ekar’s elbow. The chancellor turned and lowered his sword, watching her quizically. Jeffard covered his mouth in with his hand to hide his surprise and abject terror.

Additionally

I took a crack at illustrations, and I threw some up (more or less) on some of my pages. I’m not sure what aesthetic I want to convey. I always have the hardest time illustrating things for myself, because I could do almost anything and get away with it, almost being the key word. I tried a little grunge, a little bathroom stall, a little whimsy. I wanted them to be somewhat rough, so wherever I’ve colored outside of the lines, it’s not my fault — I mastered neat coloring very early on (except with paints) — I did it on purpose.

Let me know how you like them!

What's with all the screaming?

Posted August 18, 2009 in Writing

Alright, I’ve been found out. I have a penchant for CAPSLOCK. Call it what you want (by which I mean anything but “cruise control for cool,” because I swear, if I hear that again, the entire nation of Andorra is falling on someone’s house) — Internet Tourette’s, like jamming screeching bats in your ears (I would not recommend this) — it really makes no difference to me. The truth is, a lot of things sound better in caps. Some things are angry, vehement, and ridiculous, and there is no better way to express them. Sure, I’ve tried a certain emphasis, but it feels delicate, vague, and undecided. Try this on for size: Oh God, plague rats!

I think not.

I’m not sure why capslock is so maligned, and perhaps you guys could help me with this, but surely in moderation, even capslock has its uses. Then, of course, there are the people who don’t realize that capslock is a toggle, or were never taught about lowercase. For most of that, I blame idiocy — and to some degree, 1st Grade — but there are a few of us who reserve the right to raise our voices every now and then. I do so when I chat, and when I write. It’s as much a part of me as run-on sentences and the word “frabjous.” And delicious, delicious caramel ice cream.

However aggravating it is to see a wall of CAPS, there isn’t any harm in a CRAP or a GOOD LORD every now and then, religious sensitivities aside. I’m perfectly capable of using a thoughtful lowercase, but some things incense me — better yet, some things make me laugh. And sometimes, I want that to pop out from the sea of insanity that is my writing. Some day you’ll thank me for it. Or egg my house.

Which is why I’m buying a house-zeppelin tomorrow.